"...I wanna do right, but not right now..."

So first off let me point out that I have gone nuts and I am writing this blog at 5:20 in the MORNING! I have officially lost it! Well actually not, I had surgery yesterday and I woke up to take medicine and cannot go to sleep.

If you look, I have not blogged since the beginning of October! Wow! That is forever. A lot has happened since then. I feel like my theme for this whole year (yes I am weird and theme things) is change. I change constantly, so does everyone else. For the past month, I have tried to teach myself to grow as a person. I think that I have finally realized what it is that I want to do with my life, and what I am going to have to do in order to make it happen. I also realized that regardless how much I want to obtain my dreams, I still have to maintain other aspects of my life and not forget those as well. I have learned that I absolutely  CANNOT live without my friends and family. Also, God puts you in the right places at the right time, when needed. When I sometimes need reassurance it seems as if an event will happen and faith is restored. Additionally, God puts the right people in your life, at the right time. Sometimes you need someone to shoot it straight with you at certain times, and someone to take care of you, even if they are a little over 300 miles away.

Okay! Enough with the whole change thing! I would like to share that I am obsessed with the new Miranda Lambert CD. Since the day that it came out, I have had it on repeat in my car. Well until someone, who claims that he hates Miranda, stole it. BUSTED! So now it is just on repeat on my phone. If I could sing like one person in my whole life it would be her. She is beyond amazing, and absolutely gorgeous. Most importantly, unlike many celebrities, (Taylor Swift *cough cough) she seems totally down to Earth.

Also, I faced my largest fear yesterday. My whole life I have refused to get surgery because I have an irrational fear of anesthesia. Well the time came and it had to happen. I am honestly very impressed to know that I went 19 years without it happening, knowing my track record. After many tears being shed, the plan of what would happen to all of my belongings upon dying, I did it! The most caring anesthesiologist took care of me and then for the first time you will ever hear me say it, I really needed my Mom! Granted, I think that maybe she has slept more in this process than I have. For some reason, I feel great, I am just ready for Thanksgiving and I am determined to be able to eat solid foods before then since Mom bought rack of lamb! (YUM!!!) Now since I made it through it once, I think it's time to get the boobs done! HAHA Yeah that will never happen!


Even though I am 99% certain that no one ever reads any of these, I would like to wish many blessings for you and your families this Holiday Season! Much love to all!