Dig a Little Deeper

Often people would say that you can read me like a book. Some make fun of me for it, but I don't care. I like to be friends with everyone, and it is always easier when you can tell what is going on. However, apparently people who claim to know everything about me, really don't. There are things things that I keep secret and don't let people know, but I think it's time to throw everything out on the table. 

~I am a twin, as many know, and would with out a doubt put everything out on the line for her. 

~I have two of the most amazing parents in the whole world. Aside from Shelby, they are my two best friends. 

~My family means the world to me. It is the glue that holds me together. I can't imagine life without my grandparents. 

~I have no clue where I want to go in life, and I am okay with that. 

~I go to the best school in the whole wide world, Texas Tech! Wreck em'!

~My hometown is Krum, and no matter how much people want to put that town down, it is the best town in Texas as far as I am concerned. 

~I love to work. 

~Regardless what the task, I am a very goal oriented person. 

~My biggest flaw is that I trust people way too much, and 99.9% of the time get screwed over. 

~I am always up for a good time. "Sorry for partying"

~I am a very independent person.

~Even though I may not show it, I would consider myself a religious person. God is the answer to all.

~Nothing makes me more mad then when someone that has no authority over me tells me what to do. 

~I keep a lot of feelings to my self, and there is no prying me open. 

~People think they can see right through me...If they only knew the half of everything.

~People also say that I am overly predictable, things are about to change.

~I'm not half as dumb as what people treat me for being. I may laugh at it, but deep down it hurts. 

~I don't mind people making fun of me, but when a joke is over don't be immature it keep it dragging on. I laughed the first time, did you not get your satisfaction. 

~I don't tell people what I want, because I have been taught to expect nothing. 

~I am a little too nice at times. I don't find anything wrong with that. My great-grandma taught me the golden rule. 

~I have a love for Dr. Pepper, but a bigger love for Sweet Tea.

~If I was given $1 mil. today, I would pay for my education and then donate the rest. There are way more deserving people out there than me. 

~I don't appreciate being put down. I have gone through it my whole life and the last thing I want to know is your negative opinion. 

~I love a good joke. 

~My favorite song of all times is Kid Rock's "Cowboy". My cousin showed me this song when I was 6, since then it has been stuck in my head. When I am in a bad mood, I drive around and jam to this song. 

~I have an extreme obsession with Louis Vuitton! It is almost a problem.

~Coming to Lubbock has been the best thing I have ever done, it has opened my eyes to a lot of things. 

~One of my favorite things to do is drive around aimlessly with my friends. 

~I love scratch offs. Actually, I love gambling. 

~I want to own a fast car someday, solely so that I can race it. I love driving fast.

~I love cooking out at home and eating on the back porch. 

~My favorite time of day is sundown, especially in the summer. 

~It was not until I was 18 that I got a birthday celebration of my own. Deep down, I wish my sister was there. 

~I could eat rib-eyes for every meal and never get sick of them. 

~I love riding horses. I miss rodeoing very much. 

~Stock Shows were my life until this year. They still hold a special part in my heart.

~My biggest role model in life is my great-grandmother, Gommie! I try to live each day as a day that she would approve of. 

 

Just A Small Town Girl

I never thought that I would enjoy this whole blogging thing, but it is actually a great way to relax right before you go to bed. Even if no one ever reads this, I would be okay with that. It is a great way for me to express my thoughts when I don't feel like saying them out loud.

So recently everyone has been talking about the small towns that they are from. Granted, they may have less people living in their town or fewer people in their graduating class, however in my eyes Krum, TX will always be an amazing small town in Texas. When I was born, Krum housed right at 1,500 residents. It seems like over night the pastures of wheat have turned to neighborhoods of houses. Even though the population today is about 2,000, when I stop at the 4-way stop in the heart of Krum, I still see the tiny town that I saw 10 years ago. To this day, at 3:10 when school has just let out, I can still get into the only turning lane in Krum and look next to me and tell you exactly who owns that car. If I am not able to do that, I can tell you that the car to the left is obviously not from Krum. I have not been home in well over a month, and that is really starting to get to me. My sister goes on and on about how she doesn't like the small town that I will forever call home, but I know deep down she misses it too. Even though I am contradicting my last post when I said that I am glad that I left town (which I still am!), it sure feels great to go back every once in a while. My whole life I have not gone a whole week without seeing at least one set of my grandparents. I have not gone more than a few days without seeing my parents. I have not gone many days without sleeping in my bed. Nor have I ever gone very long without seeing my precious animals. Well I have not gone very long without all of this until August 20, 2010, AKA my 18th birthday. On this day I packed up and left town without knowing if I would ever return back as a resident. With being a little home sick the past few weeks, the anticipation of spring break in a week is killing me. I get to spend a whole week at home! This means that I get to see my grandparents, parents, animals, my bed, and my home town! This means that I get to set at the 4-way stop and look at every stop sign and see someone I know. I get to go to Sonic and determine just how much of a tip I plan to give the car hop on how close I was with them in high school. I get to go to the gas station and talk to the grouchy old ladies that work in there about how amazing it is to mix coke and cherry flavored Iccees, while they shake their head mad that I would do such a thing. I get to go sit in Johnny Joes and scratch off lotto tickets (that I can now buy legally). I get to drive the backroads with my friends. I get to park my car under a roof, in the barn. I get to enjoy a backyard, there is nothing better than laying in the hammock under the tree in the backyard on a warm day. I get to talk to the coolest mail lady in the world when I meet her at the mail box at approximately 3:25 (she now has a Tech sticker on the back of her mail car!) I get to dodge the pot hole in our road. I get to break every rule of driving that my grandpa has ever told me just to see how fast I can "safely" go around the S-curve headed out to my house. I get to drive on a dirt/gravel road again. I get to get honked at on the high-way because I have come to a near stop just because I am checking the new crop of horses that Cecil Jones has just put out in his front pasture. I get to laugh at the Krum cops attempt to set a speed trap, when in all actuality they are parked halfway out in the road, in the way of oncoming traffic. I get to drive by the school and see my younger friends light up the bright new marquee for their accomplishments. I get to walk into the ag barn like I own that place and look at the animals that I not so secretly wish that I could still show. I can run out to the front fence when I hear sirens and tell you almost certainly where they are headed. I get to see the coolest little cousin in the world, Daniel. I get the opportunity to ride horses. I get to run around the horse lot filled with dirt clods, while barefoot. I get to read the Krum Star in print. (The one and only newspaper that I read) I get to go to Miguletos, a grossly amazing mexican food restaurant. I get to go to best store in Denton, Weldon's Saddle Shop, where I can see the people that I got to see daily my senior year. I get to see the sunset. More importantly than most, I get to see Toedo, the most amazing dog ever! Also, I get to see the great friends that I still have in Krum. While Lubbock is an amazing place to live, Krum will always be my home and it sure feels good to go back ever so often and do the things that I grew up loving to do. 

A Family Of Friends

Here it is. My very first blog! I have the worlds worst grammar and don't know where to put a comma to save my life, so if you read this, ignore that fact!

So I actually wrote this last night as I was trying to fall asleep. However, it was not until today that I actually figured out how to start this whole blog process.

So as I lay here trying to fall asleep, I realize how important it was for me to move away from home and go to Texas Tech. Not many people from the good ole’ town of Krum, TX had the courage to do so. Now, those people fit into one of three categories. Category 1: They are expecting a child. Category2: They are “in love” and getting married any day now. Or Category 3: They work at the fancy new WalMart in Denton and attend to the oh so honorable NCTC. Whoa! Dream Big! When I made the decision to attend Texas Tech, I made the best decision of my life. I have no plans of getting married, I am DEFINITELY not pregnant, and of course I don’t work at WalMart. Instead, I have the best friends in the world and we are overcoming the obstacles of living life out on our own as one big happy family. I no longer have to worry about who I am going to run into that is going to spread a rumor about what I did this weekend. I don’t have to worry about ruining our family’s name in Denton or Wise County. I go out and have fun, responsibly of course. I have matured because I have had to learn to limit myself. I no longer have my parents to limit me. I have learned to maintain my active social life, while maintaining a GPA that I am not afraid to show my Mom (the hardest lady in the world to please, educationally). Any who, back to the amazing friends that I have. In high school you are limited. If you don’t like someone you have to suck it up, because you are going to be with him or her regardless, competing to be “popular” or whatever that nonsense is. Especially in a small town, you are in constant competition with them from the time that you start school to the day that you walk across that stage. In college everything is totally different. If you decide that you don’t like that person, good for you. You are not forced to sit next to them in class. You are not forced to attend school functions with them. Most likely if you don’t enjoy that person, you are not going to have to share the same friends with them. Pretty much, you can distance yourself so far from that person that you will not have to converse with them, at all. This leads me to the fact if you are friends with someone, your friendship can grow stronger. The hardest thing that I have had to do in life is move from my comfy, quaint home snuggled right out side of Krum, TX to this nasty, used, shared dorm room with community bathrooms in Lubbock. Now I love Lubbock don’t get me wrong, but I have never had to share a room with anyone in my life, much less with someone that I hardly even know. I have never had to share a bathroom where you have to shower in shoes. I have never, not had a back yard. I have never had to do my dishes in a sink the size of a bowl. Nor have I ever had to pray that they turned the air conditioner on tonight because my room is 95 degrees.  However, despite all of the down sides of living in the dorms, everyone should have to live at least one year of their life in a dorm with a community bathroom. You learn to quit being so dang picky. You learn why your mom jumps your butt every time you “forget” to clean your room or bathroom. You learn to appreciate the things that God, and your parents have blessed you with at home. Most of all, you learn who your friends are. When you live so close to people that you hardly know, you learn a lot about them, pretty quickly. You learn that everyone has little ticks that drive you nuts, and you just have to ignore that. You learn that everyone has grown up a little different than you have. You also learn that if you can practically live with someone for a year and they don’t drive you to your grave, you better hang on tight because that is a true friend. This year, I have been blessed with the presence of four girls, along with my sister. Hallie “Mom”, Shelby “Heffernan or Dad”, Tiffany “Blue Duck”, Emily, and Shelby “Grandma Christmas” are the best friends that I could have ever have been blessed with. They are my family. Of course I still have my real family that I was born into, but when you don’t live anywhere close to them you need to create your own family of friends. Just like I was when I was at home, I am still the immature, youngest, “wild child”. If Hallie and Heffernan were truly my parents I would probably live ninety percent of my life in time out. My five best friends are fun, crazy, amazing, loving, caring, cheerful, talented, and BEAUTIFUL people, inside and out. I could not imagine waking up one day and not having them to hold my hands as I walk down the yellow brick road of life. If anyone can bring a smile to my face, it is these girls. They listen to me when I just need to throw my feelings out on the table, they take care of me when I don’t feel good, and they drive me home when I need a ride. Basically, these girls are my life. Today, Emily celebrated her 19^th birthday. We all got together and had a girl’s night. It was great! Hopefully someday when we are not all on that terribly tight college budget we can throw her one heck of a good party. In the mean time, we are just going to have to cherish the time that we spend together, on a budget. As I lie here in bed, I wonder where each of us will be the next time that March 3^rd rolls around and it is time to celebrate Emily’s 20^th birthday. What path in life will we have chosen? Will we all be able to spend the day together? Or, will we have to spend it one man less? Regardless where we are at on that given day, I hope/know that we will all still be the best of friends whatever life throws our way.